hurt feelings

I have a friend, well I guess she used to be my friend. We used to run, talk, shop, hang out, tell eachother secrets, ask for advice, invite eachother over for shit. Now ever since she has had her son....I get nothing. I have 2 kids and so I get that people get busy but really? I offered to watch her son free of charge if she had to work a couple days a week. But she hasn't asked me at all and then I find out today that her sister in law (who she hates) is watching her son every fucking friday. I mean what the freak is going on. Maybe I am the problem. Maybe I am the bitch. I don't know and I just don't get how I am always the one feeling hurt! How does this always happen? Whatever, I just want others to be invested in my life as I am invested in theirs. I want to have friends that surround our family so my children can see how normal that is. Whatever maybe I am just painting a picture that will never be. I painted a nice picture for my parents and they will never become what I want them to become which is just less chaotic and to call if they are going to be late. I am really upset right now that out of the people my friend had to choose from she decided to pick her sister in law that she hates over me. I guess I am just that bad. What the fuck ever....I keep telling myself that she has just made my life that much easier by not taking up a whole day!!!! Think of all the freedom I will have but it still hurts.